Another point of view

So, I've been a little quiet on the blogging front lately...

Good news! I've been recovering from my transplant which took place on Thursday 29th October. 

I have also been looking to give some alternative perspectives to the whole experience and so have asked a few of my nearest and dearest to write about 'The Call'.

This is the first instalment of those perspectives and comes from my wonderful other half, Caius. 

Me, My Man and our Pup :)

7:59am….

The doors closed behind Jenni and I wouldn’t be able to see her until after the operation. I don’t know where I am, or where to go, or what to do, or who to call. The emotion takes over.

A nurse on her way on to her 8am shift touches my arm and asks if I okay and if there is anything I need. I don’t know what to say. I can’t move.

Rewind 10 hours and Jenni and I are clambering into bed after a regular evening of rest and relaxation for Jenni (recovering from her second bout of Cholecystitis) and dish washing for me post-cooking. We fall asleep curl into one another, Coco at the end of the bed. Silence, peace, content.

Midnight…..

We both wake up to the hum of Jenni’s phone whirring on silent. Jenni answers, I recognize the calm voice on the other end.

Out of bed, hospital bags out of the closet, clothes on the right way round. At least they gave us the benefit of two hours sleep.

The liver is a match, the ambulance is on its way. T-minus 90mins. We’ve done this, we had everything fine-tuned. Jenni opts for a bath whilst I start hunting for the last essentials: iPad, chargers, iPod….. got to load up those audiobooks.

1.30am

The ambulance turns up, we jump in help the cockney driver to drive through Bristol city centre to the motorway, then we both conk out. The next thing we know, we are entering London, driving through empty streets and pulling up at the Royal Free.

3am

We don’t know where we are going, making a bee-line for the ward we went to last time. Redirected to the right ward, checked in.

Everything is different. There is immediacy in everything the people are doing. Tests (17 vials of blood!), scans, questionnaires, plans of action. Is this happening?

5am

It’s going ahead, its happening. I feel excited for Jenni, scared about if things go wrong, anxious about what to expect after the op, alone and responsible with the lack of her parents in the mix (racing past Reading by this time)

Jenni and I take the time to cuddle up on the bed, to take just a moment before this reality becomes real.

They send in some tranquilisers for Jenni to calm her down. This causes her to get the giggles and acted completely loopy and stoned. Hilarious.

6am

They want to take her down soon but are waiting for the 8am shift to start to make the process smoother. 

7:45am

We are off. Jenni is welling up. Fear, excitement, trepidation, missing her parents (who are battling the morning traffic but are so close)

7:55am 

In the lift, on our way to surgery. My hands are shaking, but I keep up the brave face.

7:59am

The take her away from me

Will I see her again?

Silence

8.07am

Jenni’s parents exit the lift. They’ve missed her by 8 minutes! I feel their pain. They couldn’t see their little girl before she left. The nurse that took us down appears from the door and offers to pass on a message. At least Jenni will know we are here.

8:25am

So what do we do now? We have up to 12 hours to wait around. Relocating to the local café we start arranging things. I have a list of appointments to rebook for Jenni, people to notify, friends and family to keep apprised. Jenni wanted me to get in touch with people when and only when she was under the knife.

Rob, Sarah and I all need to arrange accommodation for the next week or so. 

Now at this point I am on fire! The adrenaline is surging and I am Mr Reactive! Ticking off the tasks, making the calls, making sure everyone knows what is going on. When I run out of things to do, I’ve got hours to kill before Jenni is (potentially) out. With Rob and Sarah going out to look at some shops and accommodation, I decide going to work (in the London office) is a good idea.

I actually get a couple of hours of work done, no-one knows what I’m doing there. I don’t mention Jenni. I don’t know why. I guess I wouldn’t know what to say but really I think it’s because if people start getting concerned around me and hugging me I might lose it. I can’t, not yet.

I go to a meeting in the city (rearranged) then head back to the hospital. By now it’s approaching 7pm and we are told we can go in very soon.

Jenni came around and we were allowed in to ICU at 7.30pm. I won’t lie, it was like being on board a spaceship; all futuristic and cool. We scrub up to see our girl.

Cables, tubes, beeps, blips and the hissing of oxygen. People could be terrified by the sight of all that… technology. But all I can focus on is Jenni. She is awake, she is calm, she is beautiful.

She is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen